August 21, 2005
New categories open for bidding.
Category I: Jerks, who have enough guts to own up to a lack of faithfulness.
Forgiveable after hurling some verbal abuse at.
Category II: Jerks, who don't even have the guts to admit they can't keep their southern head in their pants.
To be disassociated with as much as possible.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:32
What I missed. I missed the rally on TV just now. Actually, when I reached home from dinner with Junhao, I could have sat myself between my sister and neyney (her Schnauzer) and followed whatever was left to entertain.
What did I do instead? I went to my bedroom, picked up my magazine of last month, the one I'm still struggling to finish reading since last month, and read about 20 pages, sent a few sms out to ah girl. And then, drifted off to sleep.
I woke up only to find out that my mum is not back yet! And we are all still waiting for her to come home to cut her birthday cake. It's obviously going to be a surprise that will fail. Yes, my sister has gone to bed. I will, soon, too.
Wenn smsed me to say that ah gong talked about chinese education and was sure that I would have much to comment about that. Actually, unlike many in our government, I do not enjoy retelling old tales and making old complaints. Honestly, if I had to entertain on public television like every year, I would have at least thought up new lines to entertain.
Ok. Who am I to judge the speech when I didn't catch one word of it? I am just somebody whose armpits are yawning with boredom whenever the word 'chinese' is being brought up in yet another of these.
Meanwhile, the chocolate truffle cake my sister bought misses my mum...
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:15
August 15, 2005
Time after time. Suddenly, the song just came to mind. ' ... time after time...'
xxx
One more in the light.We told CJ about it. Us. I know it means a lot to her. I'm glad we did too.
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If you fall, I will catch you, but you need to diet first.The time that I've been missing in this blog sphere was spent setting CA paper for my class. For Maths. It always feels harder when I set it but when I did the answers this afternoon, it felt like I've just set a rather simple and straight forward paper. Sigh, sianz. Nevertheless, there will be casualties as well as high-flyers.
Will need to submit for vetting tomorrow. For now, what I want is a good sleep... after a good last call of the day. *wink*
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:34
The Mysterious Cartoon AnimalIt's kinda sad that I find my patience level wearing thin at an alarming speed whenever I teach Chinese - a language I adore. I was helping my girl with her revision in Chinese for her CA2 this evening. Towards the last half hour or so, I truly felt my blood pressure going up. I took a lot of deep breaths just to stay patient and not shake my head resignedly. And you know, this girl is already one of the better ones I ever coached for Chinese.
Just HOW do you teach a language when the kid has truly limited sense of the language and (whatever has the school teacher been doing...) does not know her radicals and tonal changes of the hanyu pinyin?
Teaching Chinese just makes me feel old cos I kept sighing. Bblics said she felt that comparison between the kids' era (of our time, juggling with English and Chinese and of the time now, juggling miserably with English and Chinese) is always unfair and leads to a feeling of degeneration. The kind of degeneration that I'm more concerned with is my own physical and mental ones. It occurs whenever I attempt to do coaching in this subject that I like.
MOE, hear this. For all that you've been trying to pull M.T from the slumps, it has only sank deeper. The uphill climb has never been steeper, and will be steeper.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:08
August 10, 2005
Now, you can see the light.I met up with Shameless (hey, by using tis nic,
they wouldn't be able to google u out!) and Bionic just now. At Father Flanagan's. Nice Fish n Chips, and spicy chickie wings... and 0.25pints of Kilkenny. I really am abstaining from alcohol, since last Friday.
What can I say? Like I told Shameless on the bus trip back, it would be sooo fun if all 3 of us can be colleagues again! I mean, I know he clearly misses my company and the speed at which I get all his jokes AND respond to it in the most witty way. yeah? And I know Bionic enjoys allying me in our verbal sparring against him. Occasionally, she would utter something in a damn smooth manner and it totally blows me off too! Like... 'Maybe it's cos the way you look..' haha..
Now that some light has been cast in your viewing lens of this blog, it's good to know that even if you both have decided to sit different tables from me next time, you would still gladly settle the bill for me. *flutters eyelashes, touched*
It's been agreed. I would compensate for shameless's going-going-gone bottles of Vodka tonight by giving him (and Fiona) an autographed edition of the home video. As for Bionic, she doesn't need any compensation. Take it as payback for the revelation that you are a P---------. haha...
So much to write... so much to laugh about. It's amazing how much time went by us without GID. Till the next GID, please contribute generously to the Save S--- Fund by calling 1900-112-6969 (We accept credit card and peanuts). Don't let the snow melt.
Keep your positivity. *wink.. For everything else, the cure is beer.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:08
August 04, 2005
Fast forward.I did a very quick fast forward today too. During dance. I imagined if I were not working on the same path as you, what would it be like for us?
I didn't like what came to mind. I left just before Sharon called for the last practice. Time out.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:44
我想说的是...今天是星期四。 每逢星期四， 在学校学摩登舞。 开始还挺好的。 后来， 不知怎么了，
奇怪的脑子里有了奇怪的思绪。 也不算是思绪， 只是突然想到的一些无聊的东西。
最近心情挺奇怪的， 怪无聊的， 又不知道为什么。 消化系统运作正常， 每4 - 5小时
就会肚子饿； 胃口， 亦或者是脑子， 运作稍微故障， 怎么也提不起劲吃东西， 选择
也有点困难。
言归正传。 怪怪的， 无聊的东西。 想着， 想着， 心情突然有点沉闷， 不知道自己在
干什么。 那一瞬间， 真的不想学了， 不想跳舞了。 对我而言， 这是很奇怪的。 因为
我一向喜欢跳舞。 可能是累了吧！ 可能不想很臭地去教补习。 不知道为什么， 最后
的一个练习之前， 我却一个人调头走回教务室。 只是想离开一下。
后来吃晚餐时， 她问我是不是生她的气。 就是这么可爱。 都没做什么， 哪来的气？
我只是静静地望着挂在上面的电视， 不想说什么。 只是静了一点， 只是看起来不对
劲。
那怪怪的东西， 到底是什么？
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那会不会是一个交叉路？
我尽量不想， 它却步步逼近。 曾经说过应该会在这一站待上好几年， 终点却渐渐茫
然。
我对那么多， 那么多的计划和梦想仍然兴奋。 我只是看不到自己接下来的5年会不会
有份参与这些计划和梦想。 要知道， 现实是永远的； 梦想却随着时间的流逝， 在现
实里面或者走了样， 或者被淡忘。 很想抱歉， 因为我没那种能耐； 可是毕竟路还很
长， 生活还是不能单靠梦想维持。
走了好多段路， 也习惯了交叉路， 更是跨过了许多十字路口。 还是不是很喜欢每一
次面要对着种种考虑才能走下去的感觉。
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是不是因为那张很不削的脸？
D 说我应该多笑一点， 因为我有个很好看的笑容。 说句老实话， 我不觉得我的笑容
很好看。 多数人会同意， 一个微笑的脸蛋肯定比一个不笑的好看。 可是， 我真的不
觉得我笑起来会比不笑来得好看很多。 我甚至觉得我这很酷， 很骄傲的脸挺好的。
骗了不少人， 骗了不少的第一印象。 可能令人有一点难以亲近， 不过， 那又有什么
不好？ 我又没想竞选什么世界小姐， 何必24小时都挂着笑容？
更何况， 我微笑的次数已经比以前多了。 关键是， 我是对着谁笑的。 总不需要逢人
就笑吧？
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:32